Long Time, No Blog.

It has been such a LONG time since I last updated this thing. I've been busy with life again... I've been doing so much. STILL working on my novel, getting back into my photography, TRYING TO FIND A J.O.B, Drinking lol, and I recently added a new thing to my list of hobbies. I write music now!!!! Actually I've been writing music since I was about 13, but I never really thought I'd go far with it because I can't sing, but I just started rapping and I've had positive feedback on it. I'm not saying I'm a lil Kim, Lil Wayne, Nicki Minaj or Jay Z, but I guess I'm decent. I have no interest in perusing a career out of it, it's just a lil hobby and something fun to look back on one day and say I loved doing. I just posted my first Christmas Song on youtube today and I'm happy with it. I wont be posting any music from my mixtape I'm making until I'm done with it. I doubt that will be anytime before April, but we'll see. I also want to say I'll blog more, but I doubt it. I like doing it, but life gets in the way and it just becomes something that gets thrown off to the side. I'll do as much as I can tho. I'm about to find a model to post up right now :) lol.

Here's the vid to my song "Santa's Gon' Cum". It's a fun song. nothing serious :)

Me and The Sex Industry.

For a while now I have been contemplating getting into the porn business. It's easy money and I can do some modeling(although it's nude). Some of the people I've told this to think that it's taking me so long to make a decision because I'm afraid of what others might think of me. Well, that couldn't be further from the truth. In all honesty, I don't give a FUCK what anyone thinks of what I do to make my money. If you're not paying my bills then you need to shut your mouth and stop worrying about what I'm doing to put food on my table. As long as I'm not killing people or effecting your life in a personal way, it's none of your damn business what I do as a career.

The things that is holding me back are my main career goals. I want to be a model, I want to author at least 4 books, I would like to act, I want a talk show and/or a reality show, I want a clothing line and a fragrance. I'm scared that if I got into porn and stayed their long enough to get my foot in the first door of many to get to my career goals, some maybe shut in my face because of my background in porn. I also took into consideration that I want a husband and kids and I would NOT want my kids to somehow come across a nude photo of me.

Idk, maybe I'm just being paranoid. I still need to sort somethings out because I need to get my life back on track. Later, Dolls!