This Right Here, Is My Swag!

I had to put that as the title of the blog because it fits the picture. I do NOT like that song OR Soulja Boy's asthmatic flow in the song. ANYWAY, just letting you guys know that I've made a whole new layout and shall be back in business this week. I miss blogging; it’s so therapeutic to me. Like I've said before, school has been fucking me up, but I'll just bitch about it on here lol. I also wanna do like my friend Kimo and write about my journey through the book I'm writing. I'm actually writing 2 books. 1 is almost done, called "Jamal King: High School Stories" and the other I just started, "Control". The first one I've been working on since 2004, but because I'm so critical of myself when it comes to things that i consider my passion, it took FOREVER for me to get to Chapter 10. I've actually breezed right through the chapters (in a good way) and I'm currently working on Chapter 15. I will get into Chapter 15 fully when i get into "Control" a bit more.

I remember when I first started this blog and how i SOLELY made it about talking about celebrities; that quickly changed. I'm not the type of person to make it a job of keeping up with celebrities and what they're doing; I'm more concerned with myself! I will, however, still comment on something when i feel i want to, but I'm not going to make my whole blog about it. MY job is to bring the PORN! LOL no really, I'll be getting into my porn more and posting the vids I like. and SPEAKING OF... the video i posted yesterday without watching and ASSUMING it was gonna be good just because King Dingo was in it... UMM NO! i did NOT like that video at all. First of all there was like 11 mins of sucking dick which i wasn't too fond of and secondly, the guy couldn't even take it! THIRDLY, was that AWFUL porn music that was playing in the background! Idk about you guys, but I am not a fan of music in my porn. I want to hear the grunts and moans!

I also wanted to share with you all my new love, HAIR EXTENSIONS! I can't dye my hair until next year because I want to go this whole year without doing so. Ever since I've made the decision I have been going INSANE! I'm actually surprised that I made it this many months without having a relapse. I really wanted to put streaks of blonde in my hair, but that's still dying so I couldn't do that. So about a week ago I thought "Why don't I just buy some hair extensions?" then i went to the website for Sally's Beauty Supply and looked for the prices on their extensions. CHILE, why the FUCK does a pack of extensions cost so much? a pack of extensions can run you about $100! Then i did the math to see how much it would cost to make my own: Silky straight 8in human hair is $7.99, weaving thread is $0.99, hair extension clips are $1.99, and a weaving needle is $1.39; all together it's about $12.36 +tax... So where did that $100 price tag come from? It's not much labor to make the shit either. About 10 mins and $15 is all you need to have some damn extensions. People have said "It's the quality", but chile, I don't believe all that! I felt the damn expensive hair and it doesn't feel ANY different than the hair I bought! I can wash and do everything I do to my own hair now. anyway, i just wanted you guys to know about my extensions lol. Thats a blonde piece i have in my hair in the pic above.

So that's all I have to say for now, I'm about to go find my model of the day now. Later, Dolls!

King Dingo and Sean Gold

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Whitey Was Doin A Bit TOOO Much!

So i just got done listening to the infamous Wendy Williams interview with Whitney Houston. Dolls, I LOVE Whitney Houston, but this girl was a MESS! she was SOOO defensive and it just made her seem like an asshole. she was going IN on Wendy and Wendy just kept it professional. When Whitney would go on a rant, Wendy just pushed on to the next question. you could hear Wendy laughing a bit after Whitney would go ape shit. i loved the interview, it made me laugh a lot. my opinion is that Whitney didn't have to be so defensive. you know that Wendy basically just talks about gossip, if it's not true why are you so upset about it? like i understand why she would be defensive, but honestly she took it to like 16 different levels. If you were gonna do all that, why even do the interview? OBVIOUSLY people don't want to mind their business, because if they did, there would be no gossip. Wendy wouldn't have a show if everyone wanted to mind their business. and we all know that the woman was lying about her drugs and how good Bobby was, so i guess we now know why she was so defensive. anyway, thats my opinion. form your own after listening. it's a 3 part thing i got from youtube. Enjoy, Dolls!

OOOPS, I Did It Again!

SOOOO.... i went on a little vacay from my blog again! lol i didn't mean to tho. my life is just way too hectick all of a sudden. it's really annoying and yesterday i was SOOOOO fucking sick! I could hardly move or think without something hurting! and the messed up thing was that i had to go to this modeling thing!!! I was so pissed! luckily I have another chance on the 17th. Wish me luck guys.

I also want to bring up how I have been job hunting like my life depends on it, but i have had no luck! It's like so messed up now a days. I remember how i got my old job at Walgreen's like the same day i applied and now interviews go nowhere. I soo hate that i quit that job for a guy. i was so dumb at 18 i swear! I say it like that was 20 years ago hahaha. Later, Dolls!

Bitch, I Do NOT Want Your Man!

I haven't blogged in so long. School was getting int he way AND other things in my life, but I'M BACK BITCHES! lol anyway, i'm just going to get into this first blog of the week.

I was going through videos on Youtube and saw this video by Ashlee Simpson that I LOVE called "Boyfriend". listening to the song made me go back to all those times when i was accused of taking someones man, when i really wasn't. All I was doing was being myself. I've had both men AND women accuse me of this, but I'm never doing anything for it. O.K i won't lie, once when I was a Freshman in high school i slept with a guys man for revenge, but thats it. I've never done it again. I've had friends accuse me and people i don't even know! Like this girl on myspace once messaged me telling me i need to stay away from her man. First of all i was shocked because i didn't know what the fuck she was talking about and secondly, You're really coming at me because your man is gay? Idk where she even came from! I wasn't even messing around with a guy at that time.

There was also a friend of mine that accused me of trying to take his man because his man was flirting with me one, but i did NOT flirt back. His boyfriend was ugly as shit to me and i would never take my bestfriends man or even think about it!!! I ended the relationship after that. of course i tried to tell him that i don't want his man but he wasn't trying to hear all that. You should know better than to think that i would try to take your man especially when we're fucking best friends!

I could go on all night giving examples of people thinking i was trying to take their man, but i really just want to get to my point. Women, if you think your man is cheating on you with a man, you need to leave him. you don't trust him for 1, and secondly if he's gay he's gonna cheat on your for lack of being happy in the relationship. Gay men, don't think just because someone is a bottom they want every top there is on this planet. Most people always think someone wants their man when in reality their man is ugly as fuck! if you are for ever thinking your man is cheating or someone is trying to get your man, you need to check yourself!

Hey, Nicki! You Got Another Hater

You guys should know how i have fallen in love with Nicki Minaj, but i must tell the truth. Nicki hardly ever makes since in her songs, but it's still hot to me. her metaphors and shit be on point. This girl I just saw on Youtube went IN on Nicki. now if the girl was whack i would say so, but she tore Nicki up. She made a freestyle dissing Nicki Minaj and i LOVE IT. i don't love that she was coming for Nicki, i love her skills. she's very talented in my opinion. Decide for yourself

Model of the Week: ?

HELL NAWW SHAWTY!!!!!

Ok, so today i'm out grocery shopping with my mom and my nephews mom. for whatever reason, my mom decides she wants to go to this Mexican grocery store called "Rancho Market". We go there and while we are standing by the meat i turn and see this HUGE horse head in one of the little windows(seen above). I was in complete shock. I had never seen anything like this so i though maybe it was fake because there is no way in HELL i would be eating a horses head. so i ask the man if it was real, and sure enough, the shit was real. Still had it's teeth, eyes, and everything else on the head except for the hair. Every time i look at this picture i think of when those mob people say they're gonna put a horse head in someones bed...  Do they come to this store to buy that horse head? LOL, omg this is a damn mess. I can't believe people actually eat horse head, it doesn't sound to tasty to me. But hey, "don't knock it till you try it" right? i doubt i'll ever try this. Has any of you Dolls ever seen some shit like this?

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day everyone! This is a shout out that goes to every great mother out there! All other dead beat moms can suck a big, fat ass toe! I'm thankful that my mom is the beautiful, understanding, and tolerant woman that she is. I used this photo of her to show how much she loves her gay son and all other gays! my mom loves gay people more than I do hahahaha. She goes through it all to make sure her kids are safe and have it together. I love you mom! :)

The Louder The Protester, The Bigger The Hypocrite

Ok so last night i saw this segment of the Joy Behar show. I was on the phone at the time so i couldn't really hear what was going on, but at the bottom of the screen it said "Anti-Gay Activist's Gay Scandal" i wasn't shocked about that. How many times do we hear about these people preaching against homosexuality actually turning out to be a homo? it's ridiculous! So, because i didnt hear it last night i just watch ed the video today. here it is:

Movie Review: Nightmare on Elm Street

OK, so i know i haven't been updating too often lately, but i have an excuse :)! School has taken my life away lol. I'm gonna try to get back to my blogging tho, starting with my movie review of Nightmare on Elm street.

This movie was AMAZING to me. I've heard a lot of people say that it sucked, but I thought it was bad ass! Although, i didn't like the new Freddy too much. the new Freddy, doesn't just look like a guy that was burned, he looks like an alien that was burned! And his voice is much deeper. While watching the movie i learned a lot that i didn't know about Freddy. I have seen some of the older movies, but i never knew that Freddy was a fucking pedophile! I always thought that the people of whatever town he lived in killed him for whatever reason, and to get back at them, he killed their kids in their dreams. It made me look at Freddy with a bit of disgust because of that little fact. ANYWAY, the bloody gore of this movie was about a 7 in my book. I love how he killed everyone, but i thought it could have been a lot more blood and guts flying around the place! the movie was a bit scary tho. it had me jumping back in my seat like he was trying to kill me lol. The acting was all good in this movie too. and the best part about it, is that THE ENDING WASN'T STUPID! i hate movies that get me all into them and then end on a stupid note. This movie didn't do that! I'm pretty sure you guys will LOVE the ending.

Now, i wanna take a little time to discuss this person that annoyed me in the theater. of all races he WOULD have to be black! OK, so the movie starts and everything is fine then this guy and girl come and sit behind me. About 5 mins into the movie i hear the guy behind me say "Bop". At first i paid it no mind because i was just confused at to why he said it. Then when the first scary scene came up his girlfriend jumped like the rest of the theater and he goes "ahhhha, what you jumpin for? that aint even scary". She told him to shut up talking to her and be quiet. then i hear him say "Bop" AGAIN! this time i'm thinking to myself "I hope he doesn't think that's cute!". After that, EVERY 5 mins he would say "Bop" and sometimes twice. along with that he was laughing at shit that was scary, presumably to show out in font of his girlfriend. after about 30 minutes of him interrupting me with his "Bop"-ing and constantly saying "This ain't even scary", I turn around and tell him to shut up. OBVIOUSLY, he didn't hear me because he continued to say "Bop" but more frequently. so this time i got up and told him "Could you please shut the fuck up while i'm trying to watch this movie?" he responds "Shut yo gay ass up". this effected me in no way because I know i'm gay and hide it from no one, so i tell him "Yes, i'm gay. and now that we have that out of the way, are you going to shut up or not?" he just kept saying lil stupid commints about me being gay and calling me a fag(real original) so i told him that his "Bop"-ing is NOT cute no matter what anyone has told him and if he didn't like the movie he could leave and stop annoying me. the i said "I don't know if you're showing out for your girlfriend or not, but if you really wanna seem manly by appearing to not be scarred in front of her, you can go to the front row where no one is and display your "manliness" ALONE!" I guess that struck a cord with him because that's when he got out of his seat, but at the same time one of the managers came up because someone had went to complain about him just before out altercation took place. they took him out and his girl friend and i was able to enjoy my movie! Isn't life grand?

Model of the Week: Pikasso

Model of the Week: Damon Danilo

There's a New Nightmare on Elm St.

In honor of the new "Nightmare On Elm Street" movie(out tonight), I've decided to take on a new persona in some new photos.

"Kenny Krueger will be your best and last wet dream. The second you fall asleep Kenny Kruger appears, fully nude with sex appeal that can not be ignored. He seduces you into having sex with him and before you know it, you're naked as well. you're having the best sex you've ever had and once you begin to climax, Kenny Krueger kills you."


I would have had more pics, but my camera broke :(. anyway, I hope you guys like the pics I posted and go see "Nightmare on Elm St." tonight. I know I will.

Christina Aguilera's New Video!

This video is AMAZING!!!!!! i love everything about it. A lot of people are saying that she is copying Lady Gaga, but i don't think so. yeah there is similarities, but Lady Gaga did NOT invent every damn thing that is outrageous or really over the top. if that's the case when can say that Lady Gaga is copying Madonna. I honestly think people are putting too much attention into it. does it matter if she copied her or not? i don't think so. anyway just enjoy the vid, Dolls.

I'm Bisexual!

OK, of course i'm not Bi(I'm strictly dickly), but i want to know why do so many gay people put down and degrade bi-sexuals? "You can only like one, you can't have both" is not an answer that's gonna fly with me. I don't understand how a group of people that are being judged for basically the same thing can put down another group of people. I hear people saying things like "You can't like both"... WHO ARE YOU TO SAY THAT? just like a white person doesn't know what it's like to be black and a straight person doesn't know what it's like to be gay, no one knows what it's like to be bi unless they are in fact bi. I think some people are afraid of the competition because not only do you have to compete against guys, but also girls. Thats not a reason to hate someone tho. I think people should just mind their business if they don't know what they're talking about. You're not bi so what make you think you have the right to tell a bisexual person they can only like 1 sex? that's the same as a straight person tell a gay person they can only like the opposite sex. Why can't we all as a people just except that there are people different than ourselves and embrace it instead of hating it? if the world was full of people that were EXACTLY the same this would be an awfully boring place.

Maybe we hate people that are different because we aren't ver comfortable with ourselves. i say this because before i became comfortable with myself i wouldn't be caught dead with a gay guy that was really feminine or that was openly gay. i used to talk shit about those kinds of people and everything. Once i started to be more comfortable with myself i started to see the error in my ways. i will hang out with any gay guy now as long as i like their personality. if a gay guy wants to wear heels with me when we go out, I won't have any problems with it. I think a lot of people need to learn that hating on someone else not cute. it's ok to have your own opinion, but thats WAY different than hating. If you see a guy in heels and you say to yourself or a friend "I could never wear heels" or "wearing heels isn't for me" that's stating your opinion. But if you go out of your way to make the person feel bad and say thing=s like "He a fuckin fag" or "he look stupid as hell with them heels on" You're a hater. what was the point of doin all that? did you get paid? did some one pay you in anyway? No? so there was no point!

I wish this world was a more understanding world. But there will always be dumb asses. Just live your life, Dolls!

Kimo Gets Kenny's Stamp of Approval!

I don't consider myself the King of photography or anything, but i KNOW a good photo when I see it. OK, so today i was on Facebook to reply to a comment someone left on my wall. While doing so i saw that my friend, Kimo, had a new photo album. i went and looked the photos and BOY was i blown away. He always takes great photos, but there was something about this album that just blew me away. I just HAD to post a blog about it. The photos(seen above) are just that special. The quality of the photos are PHENOMENAL! The outfit he's wearing seems to blend seamlessly with the location he is in. The lighting fits the feel of the photo BRILLIANTLY. and the model, himself, knows how to pose in a fucking photo. the poses are like the cherry on top of a PERFECT sundae.

I also have to give props to the photographer. According to Kimo, her name is Rosa Le Blanc. Well Rosa, I'd like to thank you for capturing these amazing photos! You did an awesome job!

Kimo also wrote this poem titled "Magnum Opus". It's amazing poem too. hope you Dolls like it :)

*I dedicate this to all my lovely friends, my family, my lovingly sweet little brother, Nikkos. I know that even if there is no future Big love for me, I will always have you. I am so humbled and thankful for that. There is no greater love on Earth than your love. And I am always refining and bettering myself and my love for you, it is my Magnum Opus (my greatest work) ♥

From the rocks it grew
Up to the Heavens, back to you,
Upon the wings of butterflies
It formed a bee line.

From the spring it surfaced,
Brimming with youth, with purpose.
My faith renewed, my eyes reopened
Upon my vila and my rye.

You are my lotus blooming,
Sweet and pure, never quavering
Under the eye of opposition;
You are love personified.

Like tendrils you clung to me
To bind a sacred ribbon ceremoniously.
You’ve made me one with nature;
Your love was crystallized.

Sweet angelic forms
Dance in the light;
Sea foam, bubbles
And drifting tides,
Valleys sink in
And mountains rise --
Platonic perfection;
Love was meant to be mine.

I’ll nurture all your elements,
Hone your fire, water your plants,
Sweep all the dust from your welcome mat;
My love was meant to be yours.

I’ll paint the dawn in your sky,
I’ll hum the wind, illuminate the light,
I’ll write your lefts; your secrets untouched.
Love shall be my greatest work
Because you loved me first.

Model of the Week: Andre Hall

"Getting Even"

A couple days ago I read a tweet from a good friend of mine(@CjKaiTv) that said:

"#TheresNothingLike realizing that "getting even" is childish, immature, and will never fill the void you desire"


I agree with that statement %100. Everyone that really knows me, KNOWS that once you fuck me over I am going to "get even"! Yes, I believe it's childish and immature, but it's like an impulse. I don't really rationalize things when I want revenge. That doesn't mean I'm gonna get into anything physical, but I will do something that will effect you in some way. My most memorable moment was when I was 14 or 15 and a friend of mine was talking shit about me behind my back. He was talking so much shit that it got me really upset and I wanted a way to get back at him without fighting. His boyfriend at the time had a huge crush on me so... I seduced him and slept with him. We had sex quite often and my friend knew, but he could never find proof and that drove him CRAZY. All the while I was loving every second of it. I was "getting back" and getting some pretty great sex.

Now that I'm older, when I reflect on it, I feel really bad. It was so dumb and childish of me and I am not proud of my actions at all. I usually don't allow my feelings to get hurt easily, but when a friend that I hold close or an ex does something to me that really hurts I do what I can to "get even". And because I know these people's weakness', it's pretty easy. I go for what I know will hurt them the most. It makes me feel good for the initial period, but after that I feel so immature. I've calmed down on the whole "getting even" thing but it's so hard to completely stop. It's like an addiction and when I get hurt it takes everything in me to just let it go and not get even. Like I said, my friends statement is true. Once you realize how childish and unnecessary "getting even" is, you really start to grow.

I hope I wasn't rambling in this post lol. When I have a lot on my mind it usually seems that way.

"Oh Mother" - Christina Aguilera

I LOVE tis song by Christina Aguilera. this is my first time seeing her perform it live. it's Called Oh Mother" and every time i hear it i have to fight back tears. it's such an emotional song. I hope you guys like it as much as i do.